Prayer...

...I need as much as you got. Through no fault of my own, due to circumstances WAY out of my control, I have now worked the entire month of July without pay. Let me break it down for you. July 4th weekend...I go to Kansas to be with the fam for a camping trip, drive back down, have my bike break down, get it fixed, and then work the last two days of that week. That paycheck (for the week before of work) was $474. It bounced. The next weeks paycheck (for only two days of work) was $212. I just found out that it bounced as well. Last week, my boss sat the entire crew down and explained how and why we were not going to be able to be paid on Friday. No problem, I had $212 in the bank...psyche. I THOUGHT I did, turns out I was wrong. Because of that, my check I wrote to cover my bike payment is going to bounce. Anyway, he said that he would be able to pay us both weeks paychecks this week. As of today, still no paycheck for last week. Hopefully, prayerfully, I will be receiving a paycheck tomorrow of $474, plus the last two weeks of pay, and possibly the $212 that I will be informing him about first thing in the morning. Now...if all those checks come through for me tomorrow, it will be a payday in the range of $1,600 and change. If that does happen, I will have to wait until Monday to find out if they cleared or not. If so, I am home free with a large chunk of change in the coffers extra. If you have small children reading...change the channel for a couple of minutes. If they don't...I am (pardon my french) fucked. Up shit creek with no paddle...and a hole in my canoe. Pissing up a rope.

:edit: FUBAR (fucked up beyond all recognitions) so I guess I'll just have to FIDO (fuck it, drive on). Shit outta Luck :edit:

Is that possibility bothering me? Hmmm...read those last couple of sentences and decide for yourself. Now I know that everything is going to work out someway, somehow. My faith in God is enough to see that happening. Where the doubt comes in is in the timing. I want it all to happen like this...Paycheck Friday, sent to the bank Friday, worked through the system on Saturday, rest on Sunday, money in the account on Monday for me to pay all of my bills and not get charged hefty late fees. Now none of my bills are due before 4th...so technically, the money could find its way to me by Wednesday night so that I could get everything squeaked in under the wire. I hope it doesn't come down to that. If it does...or goes longer...asi es la vida. God wanted it to happen for some reason, so I will just live with it. Always wondering why it DID work out like that, and then just have to ask Him about it when I see Him. Pray for me...I need it big time. Don't even pray that I get the finances in time, God has that planned out already. Pray for ME. That I won't stress, or do something crazy like what struck me in the shower after work (work at a strip club as a bouncer {decent pay, on a steady schedule, no wondering if the paycheck is coming, and cash in hand at the end of every night}) ;) Amazing what moments of weakness will have you thinking about. All you who know me are probably thinking, "Am I reading the right blog? Ben? Stress? Worry? What? He NEVER stresses." You are right, but now I am. Good-evening and good-night. I eagerly anticipate your prayers in this matter.